Vomit

I am so sick I could vomit... Lies... Lies... All lies... He promised me out of respect he wouldn't see his girlfriend while I was still living in the same house with him... LIES... I don't have money for groceries and yet he went out and spent $179 to buy him and his girlfriend "Michael Buble" concert tickets... WTF?!?

Grr... Argh...

Three weeks ago my husband announced he wanted a divorce... THREE WEEKS! It came totally out of left field... Which is probably one of the reason's I'm having such a hard time coping. The divorce is TOTALLY one sided... As apparently our marriage was... He supposedly never loved me... He supposedly has no clue why he ever married me... He just wants to "move on" as he says... He's got someone else... And he really thought that the day he told me he was filing for divorce that I was just supposed to be ok with him dating this girl now... For the love of God, we're not even legally separated yet!

He clames that mentally he decided that we were getting a divorce long ago... I mean he even madde a point when we were packing the Christmas decorations to seperate his things... I mean he was thinking about this crap back in December... But didn't clue me in on any of this!!! He decided to wait till he found another girl... To cushin the blow... Well for him atleast... Because he can't be alone! Well that crap just made it a million times worse for me... Knowing that he's been going out since December... On the prowl for his next girlfriend/wife... DECEMBER! It's been 6 freakin months! That's what he's been going out with his friends every week end doing... Looking for someone else... So sooo skeezy!

Slap in the face

I think the thing that bothers me the most about this divorce is that I'm stuck in this house until August 14th. Personally, I'm trying to make the best of it... Spend the little time we have left as a family. Do as much as we can TOGETHER with our daughter... Take as many pictures as possible with her and her father since we don't know when she'll see him next... But he just can't do it. He already made it clear that he rather be with someone else... But it's just SUCH a slap in the face when we're together and all he can do is sit there and text his girlfriend. Or sit there and complain how he has to be here, and can't be out with his friends. I am just so soo sooo sick of it.

"I hate military wives"

I took a look at how some people are coming across my blog. One of the people who has viewed my blog came via a search on Google. The person was searching for “I hate military wives.” This took me by surprise that they would choose to click on my blog, although I do like having a readership with my readers, so, I decided to Google the same phrase to see what came up out of curiosity. To my surprise, several blogs came up and a lot of them were blogs I have read and continue to read. They were blogs created by military wives. I thought it was interesting.

I think we all can agree that military wives are a crucial part of the support system for our troops. Why would someone hate military wives? I thought about it and I remember there are two types of military wives: wives who wear their husband’s rank and wives who are supportive in the community. I believe those who read this blog and those whose blogs I continue to read are of the latter type of military wives.

I do not like some military wives, especially those who wear their husband’s rank as if it’s going to make a difference! It’s part of the reason I have a love-hate relationship with KVN/FRGs. The other type of military wives I do not like are the ones who swear up and down that single female Airman, Marine, Soldier, or Sailor are trying to seduce their husbands. Yes, it does happen from time to time, but not every single female service member is trying to take their husband.

Sympathy

Ok, honestly I appreciate the sympathy I'm getting... I'm not trying to play the "whoa is me" card by any means. I've told very few people what's going on... Yeah I blog about it on here, but very few people I personally know, have this blog address, or know I even blog at all... Honestly, I can probably count the number of people who know whats going on, on both my hands... However, my husband's been making a point to tell every acquaintance he's ever met that we're getting a divorce... Fine, whatever... But what drives me absolutely insane is the sympathy people are giving HIM... Like I'm the one who cheated on HIM, or I'm the one who's leaving HIM... Like seriously, our pastor's MIL gave him like a 5 minute long hug and was going on and on about how sorry she is... Uhh HELLO?!? He's getting what he wants... He's getting rid of the burden of a family he's got and gets to go back to living the single life! I really don't think there's any sympathy required there.